it all started when i went to my mates after a night out, i saw a gorgeous looking lad sat against a wall, drunk ha. anyway i didnt do anything about it i then saw him on a night out 4months ago.. we ended up kissing. he stayed at mine, he didnt try anything with me, which i was happy about. i started texting him, and ever since we first met weve texted every single day, all throughout the day.

Then met him again on another night out, again we got together that night and he stayed at mine with a few of his friends and mine, again he didnt try anything.. i found myself liking him a lot by this point, even though we only met those times..then i didnt see him for a month because he had exams, and he needed time to concentrate on them which was fine. in the mean time we still texted every day, because we missed each other etc.

i then met him again on the monday night just gone.. again went on a night out and he stayed at mine.

Today hes gone on holiday to Ibiza with friends, and im gona have no contact with him now until he comes home which is in 2weeks. well he said he'd ring off a pay phone one night. i cant beleive how much i am missing him, im absolutley gutted that he's away and i dont have any contact, i feel so lost

when people ask me where hes gone and i say ibiza they are all like 'omg really'? due to the reputation it has, and if hell get with girls etc. but that hasnt once crossed my mind at all, all im upset about is the no contact and missing him. shows i must trust him right?

he makes me so happy, i love being with him, i love waking up next to him, i love how he is with me, how he treats me, how he talks to me, how he looks at me, holds me, kisses me, everything.

i do want something to come out of me and him.. i know he likes me the same amount i do of him because he tells me. and when he comes back were gona do stuff durin the day, just me and him. its different aswel, he isnt the 'typical' lad id usually go for.

i dont really know how to put this.. because nobody can tell me how i feel and what i feel is wrong or right... but am i being stupid for liking him this much? im not sure if its love.. and if im saying im not sure, then it really cant be love can it or id know for definate?

sorry for my rambling, i just have very storng feelings for him.

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I think it is hard to say..4 months is quite a short time but it does happen. I would wait and see what he is like when he comes back from his holiday & if he is the same. If he calls that is a positive step and shows he cares.

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i hope so, every time my phone goes off i run to check and see if its him lol, this is his 3rd day now, so its a little early for a phone call just yet.

i am missin him a hell of a lot though, its horrible lying in bed at night, not being able to speak to him on the phone or text him or see him.

i trust him though, an he knows i do, ive told him he can do what he likes on holiday, because were not together i dont expect him to stay away from girls because of me.. although id hate it if he did go near any haha. but he told me he didnt want to go near any others, and he wouldnt, and asked me if i trust him.. which i do, a lot.

we'll see. argh 3days im so lost without him.. 9more to go!

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were together now btw

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Woo great news

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